So I’ve been having a rather difficult time lately. I’ve been feeling monumentally overwhelmed with, well, everything. I feel unbelievably stretched thin with finishing my dissertation, carpooling the kids to all their activities, and keeping up with the house, the cleaning, and the cooking.
I keep having thoughts like “I should just quit this PhD. Who Needs it?!” Then I get angry with myself because I’m so close. So freaking close to finishing. Then I just break down in tears because there is nothing more frustrating than realizing you can’t do it all or even do all of it only moderately well.
I yelled at my husband the other night. I wasn’t angry with him but I just needed something steady and forgiving to point my frustrations at. And he gets it. Even when I hold it all in he gets it. He’s incredible like that. And today I opened my Valentine’s gift…
The message is simple:
yin yang – symbol of perfect balance
garnet – promotes vitality, courage, passion, love
smoky quartz – calms and helps manifest dreams
With all my emotions running high, my struggles to do it all, and my inability to realize my dreams are a big deal – he knew.
He knew I needed a bit of quiet courage to take with me, to wear around my neck like a warm embrace when I need it most.
Like I said, he really is incredible like that.