To Charlotte…

Dear Charlotte,

Tomorrow you’ll wake up bright and early and suddenly you’ll be four.  I’m about to begin wrapping your birthday treasures and your daddy is anxious to put together your new bicycle.  I ask myself daily where the time has gone – when you went from being a tiny little being that spent hours staring at the sky to a feisty bundle of energy that explores the world the with charge of an army.

I remember bringing you home from the hospital.  My winter baby.  It just happened to be 80 degrees that day in December and all the clothes I packed for you made you the most overdressed baby in the hospital.  I remember nursing you to the glow of the Christmas tree and sending baby announcements that year instead of Christmas cards.

You have truly been a joy, baby girl – from the way you stroke my cheek when we snuggle on the couch to the way you sing in the car with the volume of a choir.  Your giggles and genuine smiles make the stress and frustrations of life melt away.  I am lucky to be your mother.  It wasn’t until you came along that I understood exactly what our family was missing.  You.

I love you, pumpkin.

The bearded lady

Starring…
Charlotte: my precocious 3 year old
“Mama, what would happen if a woman had a beard?”
“Well, I think she might look kind of silly.”  
Reaching up and touching my upper lip…”Well then I think you better shave.”

Thank you, Charlotte, for reminding me that clearly I am overdue for a waxing.  Now if you’ll excuse me…I think I need to relocate my self esteem.

from two to three

My Sweet Charlotte,
Today you turn three and my heart swells with love.  
From the moment you entered my world I’ve felt complete.  Whole.  
You embody innocence, curiosity, and a kindness that takes my breath away.  
You’re possibly the brightest light my heart has had the blessing to witness.  
You have no idea how absolutely incredible you are. 
Your smile – your bright eyes, your life-affirming laughter…

I love you more than words, sweet girl.  It is an honor and a gift to be your mama. 
Happy Birthday, little one.  
Thank you for every moment of hugs and wishes and stars and snuggles. 
Those moments are what make life worth living.  
Love,
Mama

Sweet Little Angel

Tomorrow my sweet little angel, my last little baby heads off to her first day of preschool.  She’ll begin a new adventure, make new friends, and my fridge will inevitably become covered with the newest set of hand prints and painted creatures.  
She fell asleep this afternoon despite every effort to stay awake.  She hates to sleep – afraid that she’ll miss something.  But, the cold she’s fighting finally caught up to her and it managed to squeeze a 30 minute rest out of her.  
We watched her sleep.  I fought feelings of sadness and excitement as I prepare to send her off to her first day of school.  She’s my baby.  My last.  
And, even though colors and ABC’s are important lessons to learn, I’d much rather she continue to stay home and be the Goose to my Maverick – my partner in crime – my Charlotte.  

Damn.  Now I need a puppy.

Not the big kid

Last night Hubby took the older two kids to see Toy Story 3. I stayed home with our baby girl.
Sometimes it hard to be the littlest one. Sometimes it would just be easier to be big. Sometimes getting left out is enough to break a little heart.
If only this was the worst heartbreak she’d ever face…

I think my heart might need a band aid, too.

Candy Apple Red Shoes

Sometimes I wish I could play as just as carefree as she does…
Laughing and imagining and ignoring anything less than a world that smiles.  

Sharing stories with friends, both imaginary and plastic, as they explore 
the vastness of the front yard.  
Content and happy and uninterrupted in her candy apple red shoes.  On the wrong feet, of course…
And that’s just the way she likes it…

the girl and her magic balloon

She held its string with all her might – careful not to let it fly away

It’s flying, Mama.  It’s flying!
I can fly, too, Mama! I’m flying like a kite!

My balloon!  See!?

I see, baby.  I see…

*and I’m sorry I popped it after you stepped on my foot…

*really, I am.

Caption: Where’s the Cheerio, Charlotte!?

My Dearest Charlotte,

Considering it’s not really acceptable for me to start drinking before  4:47 PM or so, I need to make a request.  Could you please refrain from sticking anymore Cheerios up your nose – especially so early in the morning and so far from cocktail hour? Seriously, kid – an 8:00 AM trip to the dentist with three kids followed by an emergency trip to urgent care and an ENT specialist before noon does nothing to contribute to my plans for a serene Monday.  As of now your Cheerio privileges have been revoked.  And so have your raisins – just as a precaution.

Love,
Mama

Spring has sprung and it has taken the form of soccer

Charlotte started soccer this weekend.  
Lil’ Kickers Soccer.  
She’s a Thumper.  I don’t know what that means.  
We got up early Saturday, packed up the troops, and headed out to show our support for our baby’s sports debut.  
She started off by holding a ball and keeping guard of all the others.  My Balls, Mama!

Here she is, again, holding her ball.  

Here I am trying to tell her that there is more to soccer than just holding a ball. In fact, this is where I attempted the ‘no hands’ conversation.  

I didn’t get through.  She walked away from me.  
Holding her ball.  

She dropped her ball once and I had every hope she’d attempt a kick.  She didn’t.  She just picked it back up again.  

She did put a cone on her head at one point – but kept several balls close by just to be safe.  

I don’t think she gets this whole soccer thing – especially the no hands part.  
But with that happy face who really cares.  

Wordless Wednesday

*My dreamer, my reacher, my soul in flight…